tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36261322.post288249492119730834..comments2009-11-22T07:57:08.159-07:00Comments on follow the whimsy: Uglychristyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05264906516846593234noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36261322.post-54839884814458581162007-05-14T14:43:00.000-06:002007-05-14T14:43:00.000-06:00christy and karen, thank you so much for your word...christy and karen, thank you so much for your words of encouragement. it is sometimes everything in the world just to know that there is someone else out there, listening to the things i'm feeling. (though hopefully not too often...yuck.) thanks for the reminder to pray, christy, and karen, for letting me know i'm not the only one.christyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05264906516846593234noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36261322.post-60775086571224996172007-05-10T22:05:00.000-06:002007-05-10T22:05:00.000-06:00I swear I could have written this post. I have fe...I swear I could have written this post. I have felt these feelings many times over. You know, for me I start to get that trapped feeling--like my life has been chosen for me--like I am in a full-time job I cannot ever change. In my rational self, I absolutely believe this is the right thing for my kids, i choose it with my mind, for me to be raising them instead of someone else, and so I commit to it. But it doesn't mean it isn't hard emotionally. It is difficult to lay your needs aside over and over again. <BR/><BR/>It is, for me, about having choice, having some sort of say in my life, rather than seeing my life chosen by the needs of my family. <BR/><BR/>On the days I feel this way, I ask myself, since tomorrow is Friday, "what fun/creative thing can I do with the family tomorrow to make it feel like I am in charge of my life, instead of my life in charge of me?" Once I get through Friday, I beg Curtis for Saturday morning off. :) <BR/><BR/>btw, a few months ago I started a job where i work out of the home 2 afternoons a week. I have a college gal come here and watch the kids from 1-5. They nap from 1-3, and so in their minds, I am only gone from 3-5. I negotiated with my employer to split the cost of babysitting with me. I said, if it is important to him that i come into the office, he has to help me with that expense. it has helped tremendously--a few hours a week when i am outside of the mommy role, interacting with adults, writing & consulting. <BR/><BR/>Without sounding trite, all us moms know phases pass. We just have to find things to float us through the tougher times. I do terribly admire your honesty, and I have felt these exact feelings--wanting to love my mommy job, feeling guilty that it isn't easy right now, but feeling so tired and overwhelmed and smothered. You are NORMAL.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-36261322.post-87089770699286114942007-05-10T06:43:00.000-06:002007-05-10T06:43:00.000-06:00Hmmm, I wish I knew the answer. But I'm kind of bu...Hmmm, I wish I knew the answer. But I'm kind of busy cleaning the pink puke off my clothes... ha ha.<BR/><BR/>Just pray in general. I think there's room for some time to yourself, to be yourself. I just think that "room" looks differenly to every mom and every family. Sometimes it's a part-time job, sometimes it's working from home, sometimes it's time to yourself a few nights a week...and once kids are in school (if you're going that route), there will be a little more time. It's not SUCH a long time away.Christyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02537102298208475919noreply@blogger.com